a lil judgment

I believe everything happens for a reason though. Aku juga percaya bahwa bakal selalu Ada pelajaran yg bisa diambil Dari sebuah peristiwa. Ya, apapun peristiwa nya. Although it's a bad incident, obviously. 


2016 will soon end later in less than 1 week. Kalo di throwback, tahun 2016 Adalah tahun yg lumayan banyak nyumbang highlights di kehidupanku , and also, for ppl around me. Tahun ini beberapa Dari wish list sudah berhasil kucoret dengan bangga. Mendapat gelar ahli madya Perbankan syariah Adalah salah satunya.


Seperti yg sudah aku bilang di awal , aku percaya semua Hal terjadi karena Ada alasannya, wish list2 yang sudah berhasil kucoret juga gak lepas Dari banyak suka duka yg turut serta di balik semua itu. Di tahun ini aku juga mengalami beberapa Hal yg kurang menyenangkan, pressure Dari org2 di sekitarku salah satunya, itu sebabnya sepanjang tahun ini aku terkesan agak Diam dan lebih tertutup sm oranglain terkait masalah yg menyangkutpautkan aku secara pribadi.


Entah kenapa 2016 banyak mendapat rutukan Dari orang lain, entah apa yg salah , tp apabila dirunut Dari awal tahun, timeline social media emg kyknya paling rusuh ya tahun ini. Mulai Dari brexit, lgbt, reklamasi, pilkada Jakarta, Donald trump, imigran cina, isu penistaan agama DLL. Gak banyak yg aku peduliin sebenarnya , tapi lama2 topik2 tsb udah mengarah ke SARA. Bisa dengan gampang Kita lihat orang beradu argumen dimana saja termasuk sosial media, dan udah gak terhitung lagi jumlah pesan2 bernada provokasi yg tanpa sadar akibatnya bisa fatal memecah belah persatuan. Ahhh seriously  I miss my health timeline , I just didn't know why there are so many dumb people around us. Some people are so busy minding others life, they forgot to have one. Entah kenapa tahun ini banyak orang yang memperdebatkan apa yg gak perlu seharusnya diperdebatkan. Masalah keyakinan contohnya, itu Adalah isu yg sangat sensitif dan personal. Entah kenapa banyak yg mempermasalahkannya, believe me , gak bakal ketemu ujungnya, bcs simply since we were birth, there are already many differences between us, fellas..


Dari yg aku amati dan lihat , sebenarnya Kita gakbisa dengan mudah menyalahkan orang lain Tanpa adanya dukungan , iya dukungan, dukungan kalo pendapat yg Kita yakini tuh banyak yg setuju, salah satu Hal termudah untuk mengumpulkan dukungan Adalah dengan melakukan provokasi, yang sialnya, bangsa ini gampang banget diprovokasi oleh pihak2 yg bahkan gakbisa tanggung jawab sama statement nya sendiri. Sengaja ataupun gak sengaja. Beberapa hari yg lalu yg bikin geli sekaligus miris Adalah waktu salah satu akun ask.fm yang kuikuti, nge answer jawaban yg sebenernya niatnya becanda , intinya dia bilang gini eh tau gak guys ternyata om telolet om tuh artinya selamat yahudi loh, om Dari bahasa Bali yg artinya selamat, telolet Dari bahasa Siberian husky artinya yahudi. Siberian husky guys ! Aku ngakak parah 😆. Dan ternyata statement becandaan kyk gitu aja banyak yg percaya lol I still can't believe it XD . Their reactions successfully  made me laugh so much 😆. Entah siapa yg memulai, beberapa jam kemudian di grup WhatsApp Ada aja yg share kalo actually om telolet om itu konspirasi yahudi . Walopun pada akhirnya yg share itu rame2 diketawain masa sih. See? Bikin masyarakat yg suka nelen mentah2 informasi terprovokasi itu sangat..sangat..gampang.


Aku ga akan ngomong dampak buruknya di postingan ini, tapi sisi baiknya adalah eventually banyak yg udah sadar akan Hal ini sekarang, and they spread the positive impact to other people by talking them how dangerous when we're believe the information easily. Emang gak cepet , tapi aku Yakin lama kelamaan bakal lebih banyak orang-orang yg pikirannya terbuka dan gak gampang nelen informasi provokatif lagi. Cause I think, from all what happened lately in this country, we really need some reasons to hold each other again..keep on process, Indonesians ! 😊

The blame is on me

Since I was being a part of this major, I just want to focus on studying without any regret, without any drama, without any disturbance from-any-source such as people or anything that can make me unfocussed on my study (except Korean drama, obviously J) . i think I must using this limited time which is only 3 semesters with many plan and take any possible opportunities to develop my self. but after I met him, I felt like I’d fail to keep my self’s agreement. i felt that there is butterfly in my stomach, a thumping heartbeat when I met him, but I just could have to packaged that feeling in the name of friendship, because I realized that all of this feeling are totally wrong. I know it’s not a love, it’s just an admiration like..the feeling when you’re amazed to see someone’s manner, his ability to lead his team, his appearance, his mien when he treat you, his way to cheering you up, and his point of view when we were discuss about anything. It’s like a trap that I made by my self. the blame is on me..

Random Thought

I have many dreams like others people have too. After graduated from diploma degree, I continued my level of education on bachelor degree. I should have been taking about 3 semesters to finish this major. I hope that decision is a big step in effort to make my dreams become real.  But.. In the middle of 1^st semester , I felt very suppressed, I’m lack of self assurance and I’m exerting to keep my self esteem high, I was like a woman who can’t be grateful besides anything that Allah’s always gave to me. In that situation there’s just a cliché question in my mind like “what if”, “what if I’m not good enough?”, “what if my best isn’t good enough although I’ve done my part and pray as much as I could?”

Lucky me, finally I could’ve been handling it all and I think that situation is totally normal. My age is already 21 years old now, there are many kinds of things had changed in last several years. I must have more ability to stand by my own feet in the way of solving any problems. I must belief that I’m responsible to my own life.

Someone have ever told to me “habiskan jatah gagalmu selagi muda” , or we can cited a coldplay’s lyric “but if you never try , you’ll never know”. Another way to cheer up your mind when you’re failed on tried something, You should have to bear it a little, just believe, that painful feeling is just a temporary. I think we can get any experience from trial and error. Or simply, we can learn something from people’s experience. Good luck for all of people who never tired on the way to reach those dreams! J

The Starting Point

Hello, at the beginning, let me introduce my self. My name is intan, 21 years old from Indonesia and this is my 2^nd blog. Yea I ever have a blog before, but I think my old blog was very childish because I wrote a blog since I was in senior high school. You can check my old blog here. 

I moved here bcs I just want to make the new me..which mean… me in mature version. hmmm although I think I’m not mature enough hehe..

I’m just an ordinary human who need to express what’s inside that little space on my head so… here I am on my own starting point, gonna express what I think and feel here. I’m sorry for my bad grammar btw but I’ll keep on trying.

Ciao, for now J